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Sunday, July 28, 2013

More Of A Worrier Than A Warrior

My Mother spent a month here in Manila living with me. She had to stay here to have an appointment with her Retina Doctor because she kept complaining about her eye. Thankfully, the visit to her doctor showed negative results. Nothing is wrong with her right eye now since she had undergone previous treatments on Age-Related Macular Degeneration. It was an exhausting and expensive treatment to prevent vision loss but they're all worth it. The last visit to her doctor only confirmed that there's nothing she had to worry about. My mother was just stressed out back home and needed rest. Her stay here in Manila, to say the least, made here get relaxed for a bit. I kept reminding her to get enough sleep and not worry too much.

My Mom worry a lot. I guess it's age-related. Or maybe she lacks faith. I think it definitely is the latter. I've seen other older people who seem happy despite their age. Especially those people I know who are very active at our Church locale. But not my Mom. She's more of a worrier, not a warrior. She worry about not having enough money anymore and spend everything she has for her medicines. No matter how hard I try, I won't be able to convince her to stop worrying. Sometimes she utter stuffs that make me feel bad being her daughter but I just let it pass. I'm not the kind of daughter who can support all of her needs yet. I don't have that much money to even purchase gold coins for sale at I may be able to buy in the future. But not now. I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my life right now. I can't be that "daughter" yet. 

My Mom already left last Friday to be back home in the province. It's hard not to miss her. We fight a lot like some mothers and daughters do, but she knew that I was sorry for losing my temper. I know she didn't mean whatever hurtful words she said, so did I. We have so many differences but we're okay. I love my Mother and I don't deny it to anyone especially to her. I hope in the future, I can really make her proud of me.

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