8th Months Drama

It was our 8th-month Anniversary yesterday. I almost forgot about it if my boyfriend's sister haven't reminded me. Kiddo was very busy yesterday to even remember. I got mad at him, went home and cried. Not only did I feel bad about him not remembering remembering our anniversary. I also got very tired about what's going on with my life (work, church obligations, boyfriend). Sigh.

But he asked me several time to go back to his home because there are a lot of things we needed to take care of. I really don't want to go back but I don't want to be blamed for not getting something done because I was in "drama" mode. So I went back still feeling bad.

He remembered this time. Thanks to his sister. But that won't change the fact that he's not romantic and insensitive and childish. Sigh. What did I get myself into?

My Kiddo's "Other" Baby

I've been a constant passenger of my boyfriend's motorcycle. But not this time of the year. It's summer and I don't want to be too exposed from the harsh sun and get burned. We choose to ride on public transport especially during the day.

My Kiddo love his motorcycle very much. It's also his baby (after me, of course! :D) He loves accessorizing it and make sure he cleans it up especially his motorcycle exhaust when he's home from work. He won't care if he gets down and dirty whenever he does the cleaning. He just got to make sure he won't be cuddling me after cleaning his motorcycle. :D

Broken String

My Kiddo borrowed my guitar last Sunday to use it for an activity we had at Church. The activity was called Music Kiddie wherein they taught kids at our church locale to play some music instruments. I was supposed to be one of the teachers but I didn't participate because I preferred sleeping at home. I'm too stubborn.

I still haven't checked my guitar when my boyfriend brought back to me. But he already told me that one of the strings is broken and that he bought a replacement for it. I can see that he was a bit worried that I might get mad about. I actually just didn't care. I have to replace all the strings on my guitar anyway because they haven't been replaced ever since I bought it about 4 years ago.

I didn't have time to take care and even play my guitar for a long time now. I just don't care about it that much anymore, I guess. Maybe because it's not one of those Parkwood Guitars? :) I don't know. Maybe I'm just too busy. I might find that love for playing the guitar some other time. Not now. I have a helluva lot of things to accomplish. :)

The Kiddo And I... :)

Finally! A face on my much-talked-about Kiddo! :)

Can't think of anything more to say... LOL!

Another happy weekend!

Cancelled Cebu/Bohol Trip

My boyfriend and I were supposed to be in Cebu right now. Our flight was scheduled yesterday and we were supposed to be meeting with my bestfriend Czarina, her daughter Czij and her boyfriend at the airport in Cebu. She was the one who booked the plane ticket for all of us on November of last year but since January, Jun and I have already decided not to come because we're not financially ready for the trip. Besides, Jun won't be allowed in his work place to be on vacation leave for a week. That's a very long vacation. I don't want to be on leave for that long as well. I don't want to go without him anyway. :)

It was supposed to be Jun's first plane ride. Too bad, we cancelled. But we both really don't feel regretful. We don't want to be going there with little money in our pockets. There will be a lot of "next times" anyway. And for that next time, we will make sure that we agree to the length of stay for that vacation and that when we will finally have our first trip together, we have enough money to spend.

The trip is just not the right time for us, I guess. :)

Adorable Yet Troublesome Kids :)

I love kids. They are just adorable! Especially if they do something sweet like hugging and kissing you without asking them to. But sometimes they suck all your energy and patience. My boyfriend's nephews do that sometimes. Like when you ask them to eat the food you prepared and they don't want to because they wanted to eat something else, when you force them to get some sleep on siesta hours (afternoon nap) and when they try to reach something by themselves without using a step stool or not ask you to reach it for them.

There are just a lot of things that kids do that most of us don't like. But then we realize that we were also naughty little kids who wanted to do things by ourselves and try things that sometimes get us into trouble. :)

That's why even if my boyfriend's nephews are troublesome and naughty, I still love them because I know they're just being kids! :)

No Replacement For Stolen Laptop Yet... :(

I still haven't bought a replacement of my stolen laptop yet. My money is not enough to buy for one of those laptops notebooks yet. I doubt that I can purchase a new one this year. I got a lot of other plans to spend my money.

But I'm actually thinking about buying a new laptop this year. It's so hard now owning one while maintaining blogs. Lainy actually asked me to handle several of her blogs because she needed to take a break. I gladly accepted it because it means I'll be able to earn some money out of those blogs of hers in addition to my 2 blogs.

Since I still don't have my own computer, I'm glad my boyfriend's sister allow me to use her laptop especially during the weekends. Using her laptop also means that I have to stay at their place until I'm done updating the blogs. I have more time to spend with Kido and his family. I love it! :)

I still hope to buy my own laptop in the near future.

Torn Into Pieces... Again! :(

I’m so torn into pieces once again.

It’s funny because no matter how many times I go through break-ups, the feeling is just the same: numbness, disbelief. Yeah, my world felt like it fell apart again when he finally said it’s over between us.

He has the same reason with my ex-boyfriends. The "It’s not you, it’s me" – line. The old-overused line. I think he’s right though. I’ve been a good girlfriend. He said he just can’t give me the love that I deserve. Sigh. I wanted to believe that the night he ended our relationship was just a bad dream. When I woke up the next day, I realized the break up was real.

Everything just happened so fast. I didn’t want us to end just yet. I told him that but he already made up his mind. Maybe it really was for the better. It’s just hard for me to accept it. There’s just so much love that I am willing to give to him. I guess he doesn’t need it. He’s got his family. He’s already full of love. Maybe that’s why he doesn’t need mine.

I still feel like crying whenever I think about him. I’m even drowning myself in misery by staying in my room, with the lights off and just think about him for hours until I get tired of crying. I know I shouldn’t be doing that. I think it’s my way of moving on? :D Weird, isn’t it? Because when I’m done crying, I know I’m strong enough again to face the world. I’ll be strong enough to face him again. I hope.

Where To Spend My New Year's Eve?

Holidays are coming but I still don’t know how I’m going to spend it. I won’t be home for Christmas or New Year ’s Eve because I don’t have enough money to spend for my plane ride home. It would be very expensive especially this time of the year.

I miss my folks back in the province though. This is not the first time that I won’t be spending the upcoming holidays with them but I really feel that it’s important to be with the family during this season. Sigh.

I miss hearing my Mom’s voice even if it’s irritating sometimes. I miss my favorite sweet Aunts - Tita Rose and Tita Almeda and my cousins. I miss hearing them laugh and chat loudly with each other even if it gets annoying sometimes. LOL! I miss my brothers whom I sneak off and puff cigars with without letting our Mom know and talk about our lives for a little while. Ah! Even if we don’t stand each other most of the time, family is still family, you know.

I know I’m getting mellow-dramatic again. I just haven’t seen them for a while now. How I wish I’m a rich girl who can afford to go home anytime I want.

Anyway, my boyfriend already invited me to spend the New Year’s Eve with his family. I’m thinking twice about going though. I’m friends with his family and I’m okay with them, I guess. Just thinking about it makes me feel anxious already because it’s going to be my first time to spend the New Year’s Eve with a boyfriend and his family.

Nah! I am yet to make up my mind. :)