Let Me Hold Your Hand

It's been more than a week that my Mom was here with me. I've been busy this week but I often think of her. I wonder how she's doing. I can't reach her on her phone because I think she didn't charge her phone again. Sometimes I ask myself if I made the right decision of staying here in Manila. And that what makes me feel guilty sometimes, like right now.


When my Mom was here, I love the feeling of being taken care of. Since I was very busy, she was the one who cooked, fixed my clothes and she also did my laundry. She never did that before. When we were young, we take care of ourselves and her because she has to go to work. Maybe she just didn't have anything else to do when she was here that's why she did all that. Nevertheless, I was happy about it.

But then she was counting the days when she's gonna go home. She missed her busy life back in the province. LOL! My Mom can't live a life without stress.

We agreed that she's going to take another vacation here sometime soon. I'm gonna make it up to her on her next vacation.

Last week, while I was looking at our pictures and decided to post this note on Facebook which I entitled "Let Me Hold Your Hand":

I remember when I was a little girl, you used to hold my hand to make sure I won't fall or slip or be left behind and get lost. Now it's time for me to hold your hand and make sure you're okay. We can take a little rest if you say you're tired of our walk but I'll keep holding your hands to make sure you won't slip or fall or be left behind.

I love you, Nanay! Thanks for the wonderful time that we spent together! I miss you...

Now I miss holding her hand while we're walking. I love the feeling of being the one making sure she's not gonna fall or slip or be left behind on our walk. I wish I can do that again sometime soon. I really miss you, Mother Dear!

Exhausted And Missing My Mother Dear

Today is a very busy! I'm glad it's about to end. I'm just so tired and I miss my Mom.

I escorted my Mom to the airport for her 7 o'clock flight this morning. I still feel guilty that I'm not able to really spend a lot of time with her during her 1 week stay here in Manila. There were just a lot of things to do this week. There were job interviews and Church activities. I'm glad, though, that she understood the situation. I still wish that I have spent time a lot of time with her.

The Church activity that we have prepared for 2 weeks was successful. I'm glad I was able to do my Church responsibilities. I give back all the glory and honor to God, Almighty who have never forsaken me. Thank you, Lord, for everything.

I'll sleep tonight without my Mom by my side. I miss her. I hope she's doing fine back home. I hope the next she'll go back here to take a vacation, I would be able to spend more time with her and bring her to a place where she can really relax and enjoy. I'm still glad she was here the past days. I love you, Mother dear!

Rainy Days And A Final Job Interview

It's raining outside. I guess the typhoon Chedeng hasn't left our country yet. Although it's raining cats and dogs here lately, the weather temperature does not seem to be cold. And yet summer is almost over.

I just wanna mumble because I can't sleep. I just got home from my final job interview. It was a phone patch with the American interviewer, Mark. He's seemed very kind over the phone. I keep getting good comments from him every now and then during interview. I hope I'd get a positive feedback about what just happened. I'm hoping to get the job. Money is already running out. LOL! I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

My Mom is sleeping like a child right now. I'll be creeping in bed beside her later. I hope she won't wake up very early or else I'll not get enough sleep again today. :D

I hope it's not gonna rain anymore later today. My Mom wants us to go out. I need to take her to where she'll not get bored. She's gonna be around until June 5. I hope we won't quarrel a lot. :D

I need to get some rest now. Goodnight or good day every one!

My Mom Is Back From KL Trip!

I fetched my Mom at the airport early this morning. I'm glad to see her again after her 5-day trip to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I was a bit worried while she was there. She doesn't seem to have the energy to have endured a long and tiring trip. I'm happy she made it and I'm really glad she had fun during the tour!

She told me stories about how wonderful Malaysia is. She broke her camera so she wasn't able to take pictures of the place. Her friends got cameras though and promised to give her some copies of the pictures that they took in Kuala Lumpur. Her stories about her tour now makes me want to travel to Malaysia too. I will have to save some money for that.

For now, I'm happy that I'm with my Mom again. She got really exhausted from the trip and is currently sleeping. I wonder what we're gonna do tomorrow and the following days to make her stay here in Manila memorable! Oh, I will have to make an invitation to a friend of mine,Raquel, regarding that. Maybe she's got a good idea of a nice place that we can go to. I'm already excited! :D

Breaking News: Mother Dear In Manila Today

I just came from the airport where I fetched my Mom. She's going to Malaysia tomorrow for a tour. I'm glad she grabbed an opportunity like this. It's about time for her to enjoy her life and not think about her worries back in the province. We actually haven't talked that much yet because she's too sleepy when we got here in the apartment.

I don't know what her plans are for today. I think she wanted to watch a movie by Aga Muhlach and Angel Locsin. I'm not a fan of Angel Locsin but I love Aga Muhlach. If ever my Mom won't change her mind, I'm going to watch the movie with her tonight then. :)

She's going to be leaving for Malaysia tomorrow and will be back here in Manila after their 5-days tour. She's gonna be staying here for 9 days after her Malaysia trip. It's quite a while. I hope everything is gonna go well between the two of us here in Manila. :D

Honestly, I love that she's here! :D

Can't Reach My Mom On Her Birthday...:(

Today is my Mother's birthday but I haven't talked to her over the phone yet. Her phone is unattended again. I have been trying to call her but to no avail. She's not at home according to my brother, she's not with my Aunts and she's also not with her friend today. I wonder where she is right now. I hope I'd be able to talk to her later today.

Wherever you are right now, Mother dear, I hope you're doing okay. I love you and Happy birthday Nanay! I hope you'll try to have fun today. I wish I'm with you. Sigh! You're always in my prayers, Nay! Mwaaah!

My Mom's Planned Trip To Malaysia

My Mom's flight for Malaysia has been moved from this month to February. She's going to stay here in Manila with me for a while before and after her Malaysia trip. The trip is her incentive from her multi-level marketing job. I was even surprised because she was able to get the incentive even though she works for the company in less than a year. She is that productive!

I'm not exactly sure if the company is going to cover all the expenses during the trip. Like the food, transportation, allowance and the accommodation. Knowing my Mom, she would not want to be spending much.

I hope her company reserved something like Kill Devil Hills vacation rentals where she can really relax and have some fun. She's been working most of her life since she was 18 years old. It's time for her to enjoy!

I've been wanting this for my Mom. Unfortunately, I don't have the money to provide for her vacation as of now. I hope someday I can have a vacation somewhere else with her. Just me and her, spending time together! :D

My Mom Finally Got Herself A Phone! :D

I was able to talk to my Mom on the phone today. She finally bought herself a phone and thankfully, she now knew how to atleast, answer all calls! LOL!

I was with my friend Judith early this evening. It was quite a long day. We went to see the light show at Makati Triangle. It was nice! I'll blog about it later.

Going back to my Mom. So I was talking to her and she wasn't aware that she was on speaker phone so Judith can also hear how funny my Mom is on the phone. :D We talked about my homecoming and then all of a sudden she told me that the digital camera I bought for her on her birthday was soaked in the water. She wasn't able to have it fixed and that she was sorry about the digicam. Judith was laughing while hearing me and my Mom talk. Then she asked me what I bought for her this homecoming. She doesn't like surprises that much, does she? Of course I didn't tell her what I bought since I haven't bought any as of yet. I miss my Mom and I'm excited to be with her when I get home. I'm gonna do a last minute shopping tomorrow. Sigh! It wouldn't be that much. I'll just make it up to her on her next birthday. I better think of birthday gifts for mom as early as next month. I want to make her happy on her next BIG day! :D

My Mom And A Couple Of Our Differences...

I have talked about me and my Mom's differences on this blog. But I never really elaborated on what those differences are. Well, let me tell you a couple of our dissimilarity.

My Mom is loud especially when she's around family and friends and I am not exactly the silent type but I don't like talking too much either. She feels like she can say whatever comes in her mind and most times she gets tactless especially on sensitive issues. She's comfortable doing that because she thinks people understands that that's who she is. Whenever I'm around, I shush her sometimes because I know that she's going to get into trouble if she doesn't stop. Well, most of the time she just go on and never listen.

My Mom is close-fisted and I'm not. I prefer to enjoy whatever I get from the fruits of my labor. She will always reprimand me about my spending and that I have to save for the future. She's the type that invests on lands and properties. If Outer Banks foreclosures are available here in the Philippines, she might have took advantage of something like that even if she has to spend for the repairs of the property since it's sold much cheaper. I think she got this character from my late grandfather. I don't know. I just have a negative vibe about spending for properties. I feel like it's so hard to maintain and take care of. I mean, like right now, she's fighting for a piece of land with our tenant who's claiming the farm as his own since he and his family lived there for more than 10 years already. She's basically risking her life for that property. And that worries me. Knowing my Mom, she definitely won't give up even if it will endanger her life. Sigh.

I am excited about going home although I know that I have to deal with my Mom's eccentricity. It's just that whenever I'm with her, I feel like I'm not used to being around her anymore. My being irritable gets in the way sometimes and I'd feel guilty for hurting her feelings.

I hope we won't hurt each other's feelings on my coming vacation. I just want to spend quality time with her. I hope she doesn't bring up any long forgotten bad times and just enjoy our togetherness. I miss her and I'm hoping to have a happy vacation with her.

The Nanny Experience... :D

My brother and I grew up with a single parent. My Dad hasn't been around on the early stage of our lives. We grew up with my Supermom who does a lot of work to support all three of us. So we're entrusted to nannies. I know that my mother would want to take care of us by herself but she has to work. I remember those times when we only get to see her a few minutes in the morning since she works nights and we're about to leave for school. When we get home from school, she has already left for work or just about to go to work. We really didn't have time to bond as a family. We got used to it when we were young. It wasn't an ideal set up but we didn't have any choice.

So there we were, left to nannies who sometimes beat us because we're stubborn as kids! My little brother who's the silliest always get the spanking. LOL! My Mom really don't have enough idea about what's going on when she's away. I can still remember the nannies bringing men in the house and we end up getting robbed. If only at that time, nanny cameras were available, my Mom would've figured out what's happening at home when she's away. It would've given her a little bit of peace of mind knowing how we were when she's at work.

Nowadays, a lot of people especially Moms consider these security gadgets at home. If you're a millionaire and wanted to add security for your home and fortune, cameras can now be installed in all corners of your mansion. It's just a click away on your computer if you want to take advantage of these gadgets.

My Mom only found out the beating later when we're already grown ups. We just laugh about the nanny experience. My Mom will always say that she's thankful that we surpassed the hardships and all of us, her children, grew up as better persons. Even though my Mom and I have a lot of differences, I'm still thankful that she's the Mom that God gave me. Geez! I'm missing her all the more!

Wanting To Make My Mom Happy

I haven't talked to my Mom for months now. I don't know how to reach her because she doesn't have a phone. My brothers forget to text me when they're with her, or they just don't bother. Maybe they're too busy to remember. Sigh!

I miss my Mom. I really would love to hear from her. I might buy her a phone when I go home so we can talk often. She doesn't use a phone because she refused to learn how to use it. She's too stubborn. I think she's the only Mom who don't use a phone. LOL!

Anyway, I heard she's been working too hard for her new business which will let her travel to Malaysia as an incentive. She actually involved me in the business but I don't have the time to work for it. I hope I just have the money so she can enjoy her life as a retiree. If I'm only a millionaire, I could afford to get Disney vacation packages for both of us. :D Dream on, Ally!

I wish I can make my Mom happy though. I'm still yet to plan for her next year's birthday celebration.

Can't Keep In Touch With Mom

I haven't talked to my Mom lately. It's so hard to get in touch with her because she doesn't have a phone. Even if she has a phone, she don't know how to use it. So she end up giving the phones to my brothers. My brothers have their own lives now and it's much harder for me to keep in touch with my Mom.

I wonder how she is now. I bet she's busy with her coffee business. I hope she's not getting sick although she's got age spots. She's not getting any younger but I'm hoping she's healthy. It makes me guilty sometimes that I'm not the one taking care of her. It's just not easy to get a good paying job in the province. I hope I can find a way so I can also take care of her.

I miss my Mom, that's all. :(

My Mom And The Future...

The last time I talked to my Mom over the phone is when she asked me to sign up for a direct selling company called DXN. She wanted to go to Malaysia and wanted me to help her out in selling some products. I'm still half-hearted because I know I'm stubborn. I'm afraid to end up disappointing her. I would still love to make her happy though.

It's the same thing she did (insistent prodding) when she asked me to get a pension plan from my Aunt Rose. The pension plan is the same as what I've read from term life insurance quotes. Your beneficiary gets a sum of money if something happens to you. If I won't die, I get to enjoy the money that I've spent for the pension plan that I've signed for.

My Mom is always ready for future financial crisis. This is the kind of values that she wanted us so badly to inherit from her. During our phone conversation, she told me that she's going to buy herself her coffin so that if she dies, we won't have to worry about it. It's silly because she'd already planned in advance for her funeral.

I know it's funny and really silly. But that's how my Mom is! :D