Daydreaming About My New Home

One of the plans my Mom have is to finally build a new house. She bought a piece of land here in GenSan and wanted a new home built on it. I love the plan. My brother is going to work abroad soon anyway. Hopefully he'd earn more money out there so that we would be able to make our dream come true.

I want the house to be 2-storey  with four or five rooms. A spacious kitchen and living room accessorized with plants from www.halltrees.com. Not too many of the plants will be elegant. Just enough of them. I would love to decorate and decide on paint to use. :D I'm getting excited already.

I better stop my daydreaming. :D

Home Make-Over Soon

After 2 busy weeks, I finally was able to clean my room! I'm so glad I was able to accomplish that this week. I woke up very early just so I will have more time to do the clean up! I made it!

I'm not really finished yet. I still have to clean up my closet. If I have time, I will ask my Kiddo and his sister to help repaint and decorate my little room. It needs a make over especially that rainy season is coming very soon.  I hope my boyfriend will find the time to help me out. His sister already told me to prepare the tools that we needed: hammer, nails, weld nuts, linoleum and of course, paint. I'm feeling excited about my home makeover just thinking about it. :D

It's Been A While

I finally was able to find time to meet up with my cousin Michelle and her husband - Jon during our friend's - Quelly's birthday bash last Saturday. The birthday girl made a treat at a seafood restaurant which is just a few minutes away from where I live. That's basically the reason why I did not decline the invitation. :D

Anyway, it was a gathering of Quelly's professional friends. Women are chitchatting and laughing out loud while the boys, well, they talked about cars, car accessories, monro-matic plus shock absorber, some more car parts. Duh! Nothing but cars. LOL! I was just there, observing, chatting with my cousin Michelle once in a while and enjoy the delicious meal in front of me.

It's just different bonding with them this time. Maybe because there are other people besides us on that gathering. I hope we will find time to really chat on our next meet up.

Planning On Owning A Dog

My friend Irene and I went to a pet shop few weeks ago. We went to see some cute dogs barking at us. Maybe they were telling us to take them home with us. :) Variety of dogs were there. I am actually thinking about buying one but I just can't afford it during that visit. If only I have the money and take one of the dogs that are caged in those pet crates from DogKennels.com home. I was really wanting to do that.

Anyway, I might shop for 1 of those cuddly cuties one of these days. I can just imagine the fun of taking care of a pet once again.

Me? Getting Married? Not Yet! :)

Getting married is expensive. That's one of the many excuses/jokes I tell those people who ask why I'm still single. :D Why are they such in a hurry to see me in a wedding dress when I don't want to think of getting married yet?

Okay, here are the real reasons why I'm still single (haha! I don't really know why I have to tell you this!:)

1. No one has proposed to me yet, even my boyfriend! (He's too young to propose anyway and I don't want to force him. LOL! I want him to enjoy his young life first before getting into a very serious relationship. But I won't let him marry me when I'm over 40, though. Haha!

2. It's really expensive to get married nowadays. We can't afford it as of now. :D It's not like in the United States that women can wear simple wedding dresses and exchange vows with their husband just in front of a judge or a priest without inviting their loved ones and without a wedding reception. After a month or so, they get divorced. I don't want my marriage to end that way. Of course, I want my wedding to be memorable: in a Church, witnessed by family and friends. Even if it's not a very expensive wedding, I want it to be beautiful.

3. I still enjoy being single, seriously. I am not in a hurry to tie the knot. I just want to bide my time and enjoy my love life without rushing into marriage. I am not ready for the "Big" thing yet!

I hope people will just refrain from asking me silly questions about my single blessedness! :) I'm young and free and I am enjoying my life right now! I'm not getting married yet, okay? :D

Advance Happy Birthday To Me.... :D

This photo collage is made by one of my colleagues at work! :D I love it! My birthday is due 2 days from now. I love this advance birthday greeting!

Thanks a lot Sasa!

Advance Happy Birthday to me! :D

Finding A Home In Manila

I so want to move out of my current apartment. I don't like it there anymore. I wanted a place where I can put a lot stuffs in: appliances, a bed, nice furniture sets and maybe with alloc flooring and then turn it into a real home. I just can't find a place that's nice and at the same time, fits my budget. Sigh.

Sometimes I wish the apartment rentals here in Manila is as cheap as how it is in Pampanga. I used to work their for three years. I stayed at a 2-room apartment. The place is really nice but I shared it with friends and colleagues. My friends helped me save a lot of money by sharing the rent. It's just not easy to convince friends here in Manila to move with me, though. I'm not sure if I'm used to living with someone else, I guess. What I like living alone for now is that, I just have to think about myself. I can leave my stuff messy without worrying someone else at home may get mad for my being stubborn sometimes. However, if I live with somebody else, I'd be forced to always clean my mess up. :D I know most of you can relate to that.

Anyway, I'll continue my quest for a nice and suitable home for me. I know I won't be able to find it soon but I hope one day I will. :)

The Kiddo And I... :)

Finally! A face on my much-talked-about Kiddo! :)

Can't think of anything more to say... LOL!

Another happy weekend!

A Coffee Confession

I’m a coffee person. Not exactly addicted to it but I just feel the need to drinking coffee at least once in a day especially at the start of my day or night (since I work nights... LOL!).

I have read a lot of benefits from drinking coffee. That it contains natural antioxidants and that it helps in preventing causes of diseases like diabetes and colon cancer as long as it is drank in moderation. 1-3 cups a day is the right way of drinking coffee. I guess I’m safe from getting addicted to it because I make sure to have at least just 2 cups of coffee a day.

I like the taste of brewed coffee. The aroma is just so soothing, you know. Sometimes I feel like buying a bunn commercial coffee maker so that I can have a fresh cup of coffee when I wake up. I envy one of my colleagues when she won a coffee maker at the raffle in the office during our recognition day last month. It was a 3-in-1 coffeemaker/oven with a little frying pan on top. She’s one lucky girl! I hope my name will be picked on the next raffle draw. :D

Anyway, this is one coffee confession to make. Let me get my last cup!

Not Giving Away My Favorite Dresses Yet

I'm always disappointed whenever I tried to fit 2 of my favorite dresses (both of them are small-sized dresses). I really miss wearing them and I feel frustrated whenever I have a hard time trying them on. They used to fit me and now they don't! :(

Sorry about this tilted photo :)

I got bulging tummy when I tried this on...

I have to do something about my growing weight or else I'll end up buying plus size black dresses and give away these fave dresses. I don't want to do that just yet. Got to schedule that work out soon!

LED Lighting For Our Church

The Church is where I spend most of my time before I go to work at night. As one of the appointed leaders in the youth and singles department, I pretty much got a lot of tasks to accomplish almost everyday.

We hold our meetings inside the Church. Sometimes I can't help my drowsiness especially if I don't get enough sleep. Sometimes I blame it to the poor lighting inside the Church. Since high power led is getting popular nowadays, I wonder if our Church would replace our incandescent and fluorescent bulbs to LED lighting instead. Not only will it give better light inside the Church, members like me won't find anything to blame for our drowsiness during our meetings. :)

I'll Be Home Soon

My family and relatives had a gathering last Sunday. It was for my Mother's birthday bash and my big brother, Alexander's celebration of being a policeman. He just graduated from his training and is now officially a law enforcement officer! I'm so proud of him!

A candid shot of my big brother - Alex

My dear cousin Lainy posted a lot of their photos in Facebook. Thanks dear cuz for doing that!!!

My Mom and the gumamela flower... lol!

I can't help but miss all of them all the more. Last week I was just thinking about coming home. I've been saving money for that, anyway. I wish I have silver bars to sell so that I have a lot of money to bring home.

I promise I'll be home soon!

We Lost A Baby

I blogged about my cousin Michelle and her husband, Jon, sometime ago about expecting a baby. You can read it here.

But just few hours ago, I received a text message from Jon saying they're at a hospital near my office. On his first message, he told me he brought Michelle to the hospital because her water broke. She's not even due yet. That's when I got worried and asked how the baby was. He said they lost it. :(

I'm so sad...

Adorable Yet Troublesome Kids :)

I love kids. They are just adorable! Especially if they do something sweet like hugging and kissing you without asking them to. But sometimes they suck all your energy and patience. My boyfriend's nephews do that sometimes. Like when you ask them to eat the food you prepared and they don't want to because they wanted to eat something else, when you force them to get some sleep on siesta hours (afternoon nap) and when they try to reach something by themselves without using a step stool or not ask you to reach it for them.

There are just a lot of things that kids do that most of us don't like. But then we realize that we were also naughty little kids who wanted to do things by ourselves and try things that sometimes get us into trouble. :)

That's why even if my boyfriend's nephews are troublesome and naughty, I still love them because I know they're just being kids! :)

I Overslept... Guilty as charged. :(

Yesterday was a very unproductive day for me. I was not able to join the lunch date with cousins Willy and Michelle and Kuya Jon, I also was not able to attend a very important Church activity.
I overslept. Guilty as charged. :(

I actually cancelled my lunchdate with Willy and company because I don't want to be sleepy during our Church activity. It turned out that I overslept and woke up by the time the program had already started. I was too ashamed to go to the gathering. I just stayed home and got ready for work.

I have already apologized to friends who expected me at Church yesterday. It wasn't my intention not to be present in the activity. I promise it won't happen again next time.

The Watch Will Have To Wait

I'm sick again. This time, I got swollen tonsils, cough and on/off fever. I hate going to the doctor because it will mean I will have to spend money for the medications. But I don't have a choice. :( I was planning to buy a good watch like that of citizen watch. I will have to postpone that. Tonsillitis can be deadly if it's not cured right away.

I have a friend who died recently because of tonsillitis. He's only 23 years old, an only child in his family. He self-medicated for 2 weeks and did not care to check with his doctor. It was too late for the doctors to save him when he was brought to the hospital. There were already complications on his internal organs. He died after few hours. I remember the last time I hang out with him was during my cousin Michelle's wedding. He was fun guy. Too bad he died at a very young age.

That is the reason why I'm pretty cautious about this ailment. Whenever I feel that my tonsils are swollen, I always check with my doctor to get proper medication which I will have to do after today's shift at work. The watch will have to wait. :)

A Pretentious Samaritan

I had strange experiences this week. An experience that made me and my colleagues realize that we should not easily trust people even if they look normal. :D

I used to work with this woman. At first, I thought she's a good friend. But then, as time passed by, I realized she's not worth keeping as a "real friend". I discovered some strange attitude of hers. She would pretend that she's a good friend to help out especially in times of need. But then, she will eventually take something from you in return of her good deeds. She's the type of person you don't want to meet in the first place.

She's a big-fat liar. She lied about being robbed before Christmas Eve and then asked our manager for an Emergency loan. Since those kind of loans are only approved if it's a family emergency, she was right away denied of the loan. It only gets approved if someone in the family got hospitalized or if there's death in the family. Well, guess what? After a day or two, she sent a message to our manager saying that her son is in ICU and they needed blood donors. Without hesitation, our manager sent an email blast in the office and asked for anyone who could donate blood and extend help financially as well. An envelope was passed around in the office for us to put in some money for that woman's son. Most of us were already suspicious about what was going on. We did our own investigation and called the hospital where she said her son was confined. Nobody by her son's name was admitted in the ICU, the wards and even in the Emergency Room. When somebody was ready to donate blood the next day, she said her son has already recovered and that they were already sent home. Strange, isn't it?

Later, people at the office were talking about her already. We found out that she owe some of my office-mates big sum of money and that it looked like she was not planning to pay them. She kept making excuses to not report to work and that there's always a tragedy in her household.

The most weird thing she did was to go to the office on Tuesday night this week, pretended to be somebody else and asked for me at the reception. She used a different name. When I went down to see who was asking for me, the lady at the reception area said she already left. One of our colleagues saw her downstairs coming out of the building that same night. That's why we knew it was her who was asking for me at the reception. I wonder what she wanted with me.

I reported the incident to her manager. We have to be cautious of her this time. We don't know what she's capable of. She doesn't have access to the office anymore. I just hope she won't be bothering anyone of us in the office. Whenever I'm done with my shift at work, I make sure I got someone with me to accompany me on my way to the train station. Just to be safe. :D

I still kept wondering what this woman is up to. I just hope and pray she won't bother me anymore. Besides, I can't think of anything wrong that I did towards her while she was still working at the office. I was even nice to her.

Oh well, sometimes it's really hard to tell real Samaritans from the disguised ones. We just have to be careful with some people we don't really know. Don't believe in everything they say or show because those things could just be figments of their imagination. They will just try and earn your trust and eventually make your life miserable.

No Replacement For Stolen Laptop Yet... :(

I still haven't bought a replacement of my stolen laptop yet. My money is not enough to buy for one of those laptops notebooks yet. I doubt that I can purchase a new one this year. I got a lot of other plans to spend my money.

But I'm actually thinking about buying a new laptop this year. It's so hard now owning one while maintaining blogs. Lainy actually asked me to handle several of her blogs because she needed to take a break. I gladly accepted it because it means I'll be able to earn some money out of those blogs of hers in addition to my 2 blogs.

Since I still don't have my own computer, I'm glad my boyfriend's sister allow me to use her laptop especially during the weekends. Using her laptop also means that I have to stay at their place until I'm done updating the blogs. I have more time to spend with Kido and his family. I love it! :)

I still hope to buy my own laptop in the near future.

A Better Me On 2012

It may seem that I ended my year broken hearted because of my previous post but don’t worry guys, I’m fine and feeling much better. Kido and I agreed to stay as friends and enjoy our company with each other until he figures out what he really wanted. Like I said in the previous post, he needed time to grow up. I just don’t think I can wait long enough. I got to be honest, I’m still hoping but I know myself better. I’ll just wait until I get tired which I know will not take much longer.

Anyway, I want to start a happy post this year. Let me tell you that I had fun spending time with Kido’s family on New Year’s Eve. I know it's funny. Yeah, I was there! :D I love his family. And I feel very much part of it already. Kido and I still looked like we’re a couple. His family didn’t have any idea that we’re not together anymore. I don’t know how they will feel if they’d know about what happened between us. I’ll leave it all to Kido. It wasn’t I who broke it off anyway.

Although I’m hoping that we’re going to be together again, I also have my own plans in case it will not happen anymore. I can make a new beginning – a much stronger me. I won’t look for somebody new after Kido. I’ll give myself another chance to enjoy being single again and make future plans without someone else. I’m used to this anyway. I’ve been independent for years. So I know that I’ll survive this heartbreak. :)

This year, I’m hoping to be happier. Even if I have to live alone again. I hope there will be better opportunities for me. I’ll focus on my career and my Church obligations and just enjoy life. I might go home to the province twice this year. I miss my family.

This year should be a new beginning for me. It's gonna be a better me on 2012! To find someone to love? I think I better wait until I’m ready.

Happy New Year guys!

Torn Into Pieces... Again! :(

I’m so torn into pieces once again.

It’s funny because no matter how many times I go through break-ups, the feeling is just the same: numbness, disbelief. Yeah, my world felt like it fell apart again when he finally said it’s over between us.

He has the same reason with my ex-boyfriends. The "It’s not you, it’s me" – line. The old-overused line. I think he’s right though. I’ve been a good girlfriend. He said he just can’t give me the love that I deserve. Sigh. I wanted to believe that the night he ended our relationship was just a bad dream. When I woke up the next day, I realized the break up was real.

Everything just happened so fast. I didn’t want us to end just yet. I told him that but he already made up his mind. Maybe it really was for the better. It’s just hard for me to accept it. There’s just so much love that I am willing to give to him. I guess he doesn’t need it. He’s got his family. He’s already full of love. Maybe that’s why he doesn’t need mine.

I still feel like crying whenever I think about him. I’m even drowning myself in misery by staying in my room, with the lights off and just think about him for hours until I get tired of crying. I know I shouldn’t be doing that. I think it’s my way of moving on? :D Weird, isn’t it? Because when I’m done crying, I know I’m strong enough again to face the world. I’ll be strong enough to face him again. I hope.