8th Months Drama

It was our 8th-month Anniversary yesterday. I almost forgot about it if my boyfriend's sister haven't reminded me. Kiddo was very busy yesterday to even remember. I got mad at him, went home and cried. Not only did I feel bad about him not remembering remembering our anniversary. I also got very tired about what's going on with my life (work, church obligations, boyfriend). Sigh.

But he asked me several time to go back to his home because there are a lot of things we needed to take care of. I really don't want to go back but I don't want to be blamed for not getting something done because I was in "drama" mode. So I went back still feeling bad.

He remembered this time. Thanks to his sister. But that won't change the fact that he's not romantic and insensitive and childish. Sigh. What did I get myself into?

Wattaday!!! :(

I already wasn't feeling well at the office the whole shift earlier. When it was time to go home, I was in hurry to catch the first train so I won't be late for Church service this morning. I can hardly breathe because of my flu during the service. And when I was on my way home, I realized I left my set of keys at the office. So I had someone destroy my door lock so I can get into my room. Sigh! Why am I so clumsy today? I'm still waiting for someone to fix my door lock. I still have to go to the bank but I can't leave my house yet. Whattaday! LOL! This is just awesome! I hope I won't get into anymore trouble today. :)

Can't Endure The Heat!

According to PAGASA's (Philippine Atmospheric, Geophysical and Astronomical Services Administration) weather forecast today, since there's a tropical depression called "EGAY" in the southern part of Luzon, Visayas and Mindanao, the rest of Luzon will have partly cloudy skies with isolated rain-showers or thunderstorms. How come I didn't see any cloudy skies today?! It was so hot and I really can't manage to be outside for too long anymore.

I actually processed my job requirements today and wasn't expecting too much heat outside. Sigh! It was really exasperating not to mention the government employees I have to deal with today. I really hate the government agencies because I have to wait for a long time just for my documents to get processed. When will change on their system ever gonna happen?

I still have 2 more requirements to accomplish. I will have to wait until Tuesday since it's holiday on Monday and I can't endure the heat anymore.

While I was on a bus on my way home, I saw some motorcycles on the road. I always think about driving my own motorcycle which is equipped with garmin zumo, a GPS navigation system. I just think that driving a motorcycle is more convenient and I'd be at my destination as soon as possible. I won't have to commute and wait for the bus to escape the traffic. However, a lot of people always discourage me to buy this two-wheeled vehicle. Just because a lot of road accidents that happen everyday are motor accidents. It scares me a bit as well and makes me think twice about my plan. Besides, I'm not really sure if I'd choose to use it during day time here in Manila. I can't even endure few minutes of being under the sun! :D

Summer Rant

It's so hot these past days! This summer has really been so warm especially here in Metro Manila. You really would feel like taking a bath every minute. Sigh!

According to PAGASA (Philippine Atmospheric, Geophysical and Astronomical Services Administration), the temperature is going to go up to 34°C here in Metro Manila. We'll be expecting some more heat later today. I don't wanna go out!

I hope summer ends soon! I can't bear this heat!

Wanted To Be In Baguio City This Summer...

Geez! I can definitely feel the summer time now! It's so hot! I don't feel like going out even if I have to. The heat is definitely on! Grr!

I really don't like it that much if it's this hot. I can't get proper sleep and I always crave for soda which is unhealthy.

All I really wanna do right now is to go to Baguio City to experience cool weather. I have a friend who lives there who keeps inviting me to come over to her place. I just didn't have time to do so. I would love to experience Baguio City again. The cold breeze, the green pastures. I just love it there. I would love to be at Camp John Hay wearing a pair of breeches and go horse back riding! That would be so much fun.

Unfortunately, I can't be anywhere else yet. I still have a week to go to work. Besides, I'd be out of budget if I go there. I have to prioritize my homecoming for my cousin's wedding this 30th of April. I might be able to squeeze the Baguio City trip in May, I hope!

Work Dilemma

I have been having a dilemma with my job lately. I feel like I didn't learn anything from the training. I often think about quitting my job but whenever I go back to my work, my issues on my orders seemed to get resolved. It's just so hard especially when everyone in the production floor are very busy with their own orders. I can't ask anyone to help me with my problems. And then I'd feel frustrated again. I will have to call our American colleagues to help me out. I wish I should have been very attentive during our training.

I'm actually giving this job a month or so to check whether or not I'd be staying longer. The workload isn't that stressful. The only problem is, I'm still learning pretty much everything about my job. If ever I won't be able to reach my expectation to myself, I might check some jobs online like that of charlotte jobs. I'd better have get a job to fall back at in case I decided to quit. :D

Another Manic Monday! :D

It's another Manic Monday! :D

I was really busy last week. Aside from work, I had a friend whom I spent my time with during the weekdays and joined some activities at Church that's why I wasn't able to update my blogs. I didn't even have the energy to go online last week! Whenever I get home, I just wanted to go straight to bed and get enough sleep.

I still have a lot of things to do. I want to chill and have some fun. I want to go out and shop or play billiards with friends. I haven't held pool sticks for quite a while now! Geez! If I can only extend my weekend which isn't possible. Sigh.

Anyway, whether I like it or not, I will have to deal with Monday and the succeeding days of the week! LOL! I'm looking forward to my next weekend though!

Can I Extend My Weekend??? :(

We practised a song at Church yesterday that we're going to sing in our upcoming anniversary. The song was nice. I had a good time practising. But since I lack sleep yesterday, I was already not in the mood to really hang out with friends at Church after the practise. We had like a team building after the practise and was already antsy while participating on the activity. There were still a lot of things I need to accomplish back here in the apartment. I just can't leave so I tried to enjoy the activity. I was good on acting like I'm okay but I was really exhausted. I was so glad when we finished the activity and went home right away.

I was able to talk to my Mom before I went to sleep. I'm glad she's alright and she had a good time celebrating her birthday with friends. I told her to keep her phone turned on. I don't why my Mom don't understand how important it is to be able to talk to her whenever I can? Sigh. Anyway, she sounded happy while we we're talking on the phone. I had peace of mind after I've been able to talk to her and it helped me get a very good sleep last night.

It's Monday and it's back to work. Sigh. Can I extend my weekend???

I Hate Medical Examinations...

I had my medical examination done this morning. It was one of the requirements for my new job. Honestly, I really don't like medical examinations not only because of the needles for the blood test there are numerous things that really makes me feel uncomfortable.

I had a hard time starting my day because the thought of collecting my stool made me really disgusted. But since I didn't have a choice, I was able to - - you know what! Urrgghh!

So I brought my stool which is by the way completely sealed (LOL) as I came to the lab. I drank lots of water before I left the house so that when they collect my urine, I would be able to fill the bottle which I did with the door not completely closed. The woman in the lab needed to make sure that the urine came from the patient. Yeah right. That's how it is now, I guess.

Although the doctor who did the interview and other tests is very accommodating, I still feel humiliated when I was asked to put my pants down and bend over. I know.. She's used to seeing a lot butts in a day.

Sigh! I wish I won't have to go through medical examinations anymore!

Torn Between Work And Family - A Dilemma

I'm in a dilemma right now. Talking about being torn between spending quality time with my family and my freaking job. I really want to go home but work gives me a hard time with my vacation leave. Sigh. I have already bought an expensive plane ticket for this home coming. My flight is on Saturday and my supervisor hasn't given me any positive news about my Vacation Leave request. I really want to be with my family and on my cousin, Michelle's wedding.

Filing for vacation leave is a struggle in our office. Their system sucks! They should prioritize those who have good scorecards. Not the "friendship" system. And I don't think I deserve this. I've been working my a$$ out, I've been doing my job well and I haven't been absent for months. My supervisor doesn't give me other options for my request. She doesn't even talk to me. I think she's scared because she knew I'm going to break down at any time if she gives me negative news. Yeah, she should be scared.

I deserve a break from work. I think my boss wanted me to just quit the job because I've been a pain on her bulging neck. It's her fault most of the time, anyway. I'm just the kind of person who's transparent enough and outright frank about how I feel. There's always been a strain between the two of us. Well, I'm not the only one in the team who hate her. And I don't want to hate her forever either. We have enough of each other already.

I'll talk to her boss and check if she talked to him about my request. It's pretty obvious that I have trust issues with my supervisor. I'll find out tomorrow if she really submitted my request to the higher management. Coz if not, all hell is gonna break loose! Sigh. I really don't want to hate someone like this.

Anyway, if I am to leave my present employer, I hope I'd land on a better job with good pay and better supervisor. Sigh. Easy for me to say.

The 2-hour Tagaytay Experience

Let me tell you about what happened yesterday on our team building in Tagaytay.

We all agreed to leave Makati at 7am. Judith and I were at the meeting place around 6 o'clock in the morning. Some team mates came around 8am. So basically, we left at 9- it was too late and we're already expecting traffic jam on our way to Tagaytay. I'm already upset before we left since I didn't get enough sleep the previous nights.

As expected, we were in the middle of the traffic jam. Was stuck there for 2hours. My butt was already hurting since we've been sitting for more than 3 hours already. And then our driver announced that the jeepney's brakes wasn't working! The brakes needed to be fixed right there and then, in the middle of the road! Grrrr! You can just imagine the frustration and humiliation.

It was past 12noon. We haven't had our lunch yet and that added to the agitation. I would've jumped in the first bus that's routed back to Manila. Too bad there wasn't any at the moment.

So we waited until the jeepney got fixed in less than an hour. We're hungry and we actually don't have any idea where we were headed in Tagaytay.

The cold weather and the nice scenarios changed our mood when we arrived in Tagaytay. The place is cold and green! :D I was smiling already when I was taking some photos. If only we were early, we could've enjoyed our stay in Tagaytay. I actually went home early with Judith because I have to attend our Church service. Judith doesn't want to stay so she went back in Manila with me. We were in Tagaytay in just more than 2 hours, basically! LOL! I just went there to eat and take pictures.

It was the worst team building ever but I'll make sure I'll go back to Tagaytay with friends and enjoy whatever the place has to offer! :D

Here are some of the photos I took.

Waiting for the freaking jeep to get fixed...

I was with Judith on the front seat of our ride...

Judith in the rear view mirror! :D

Behind me is the famous Taal Volcano surrounded by the lake...

Everyone was hungry!

The team

I wish I didn't come...

Election And Problem At Work...

I casted my vote on the Barangay and SK (Sangguniang Kabataan) elections in Makati. I went to the school where the election was done. There were a lot of people, as expected. I'm glad I was able to finish it as soon as I get there.

There was bad news at work. I really feel bad about it. Made me cry, actually. She think she finally saw something to ruin me. I hope she doesn't win, though. I'm hoping and praying that I'd get over this issue at work positively. I don't know what's going to happen yet. I'm hoping for the best. God is help me get through this.

I hope I won't think about work so I can sleep now. I feel so exhausted! :(

Work Sucks! I Need Patience...

I can't sleep. It's about an hour before I prepare for work. I've been thinking about work when I was trying to get some sleep earlier. I got stressed out, I guess. My work environment SUCKS! I don't like my team at work especially my boss but I have to deal with them. I don't have a back up plan as of yet. That leaves me with no choice but to deal with what's going on at work.

Our team is divided in to 2 teams - the newbies and us, the oldies (or people who spent a few years in the account). Our supervisor only cares about the newbies. She considers us her enemies. I even have a feeling that she's finding faults from us so she can get rid of us. A lot of our friends already resigned because of her.

To be honest, I really don't like her. I know she doesn't like me either. I better think about a way out or a back up plan just in case the situation comes to worst. Phew! Why do I have to come across people like her?

I need more patience because this job is my bread and butter. I won't give her a chance to ruin me. I've been doing my job really well despite having to deal with a vicious boss like her. I just hope I won't breakdown.

Patience, Alley, patience...

I'm All But A Nagging Sis And I Hate It! :(

I hate nagging! I've been doing it lately and it makes me kind of stressed out! I don't like to keep repeating myself! I didn't choose teaching as a profession because I don't have that much patience! I don't like telling people what to do because I don't like treating them like they're stupid!

I hate seeing people looking so lazy when they're not supposed to. Phew! I'm talking about my brother. I just had enough of him lately. I'm getting tired of hearing his wife telling him what to do. He's like a toy waiting to be maneuvered or something. He can't just do things his way. Someone has to tell him what to do and what not! He's just a year younger than me but he acts like he's still in college. He just wanted to sleep and watch TV! And when he sleeps he snores so loud! I kept telling him to do some exercise to remedy the disturbing snore but it just fell on deaf ears! What the hell happened to him? He's got a wife and a kid for Christ-sake! Geez! I don't know what to do with him anymore. I'm really running out of patience here.

I'm all but a nagging sister and I hate it! :(

Sleepy Employee

I just got home from church. I'm glad I'm done with my church service today. All I would do tomorrow is got enough sleep.

I didn't get enough sleep today so expect me sleeping on my terminal later at work. :D I hope I won't have an irate caller today. I worry about my patience whenever I lack sleep. Sigh. I'm a bit tempted on not going to work today. But I have to work on my scorecard.

I wish I can just doze off to sleep and not care about work! :D

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Tired of Pointless Rantings

Back fighters, negative thinkers, ranters - they're just everywhere, aren't they? They are these people who seem to not have peace of mind. People who doesn't give chance to see the good in others. Instead of contemplating and confronting the person whom they misunderstood or had disagreement with, they would turn to others who really didn't know what really happened. Tell them their side of the story and brainwash them. Those people end up scornful towards that other person.

I feel sorry for those who were brainwashed. Even more sorry for the brain washer.

This is about work, actually. I'm just getting tired of someone's pointless rants and whining which seemed never ending. I want a positive atmosphere at work, however, there's this person who can't stop ranting about our boss. That person just don't get tired of raising issues which are already getting old and irrational. What a pity!

I have told this person that I disagree with her and I think she realized that I'm not on her side, so she turns to my other colleagues. Sigh.

I just want peace, don't you get that? You're getting into my nerves! Why don't you just do your darned job and make our work atmosphere harmonious?

Back off you manipulative, pointless ranter!!

Dealing With A Looser...

I didn't come to work the other night. I was not feeling well and the thought of having to deal with my supervisor made me all the more sick and tired. I'm not having fun at work at all. Besides, I won't have the career growth that I've been trying to reach since I have a very incompetent supervisor. I don't trust the inconsistent scorecards that she's showing us. I have been working my a$ so hard and then I don't get the right scores? What's up with that? My colleagues and I don't deserve that!

These past 3 months, I almost had it! I was supposed to be promoted, but then because of one unintentional absence which was not explained to me, I wasn't able to make it. She didn't talk to me about it and she would just say, "moving forward...", that's one of her famous lines actually.

There was this instance that I became hysterical of the scorecard that she showed me because I knew for a fact that it wasn't right. I was really working so hard just to be promoted. And she has been showing a lot of inconsistencies for the past months already, I broke down and cried. My team mates witnessed it. When she said that "moving forward" line and that I will have to do good next month, I shouted at her! I wasn't able to control myself. I didn't care if everyone was looking at me. I said. "Anong moving forward? Mali 'tong scorecard na 'to! (What? Moving forward?? This scorecard is wrong!)". I think I scared her. She turned her back at me and went back to her station. She doesn't know how to explain and doesn't even do something about the issues. There were lots of instances that she showed her incompetence not only to me but also to my team mates.

She doesn't know how to decide for the team. If there's something that we ask her about, she would say, "I'll ask my boss". What the heck??? Aren't you a boss yet??? Even simple questions, she has to ask her boss!

She doesn't trust us. She obviously wanted to get rid of the people she hated in the team. Just last month, while I was on vacation, she reported incidents done by my colleagues which are subject for dismissal. She didn't review the reports. They were just plain suspicions without enough proof. My colleagues were suspended for weeks but were requested back in the production by the Human Resources officers since the allegations were false. My colleagues didn't do anything wrong at all. Good thing their suspension was paid since they were proven not guilty.

Days have gone by, our supervisor still haven't said something about what happened. I think she doesn't have the courage to apologize to us. She even told one of our colleagues that she's waiting for us to say sorry to her. The nerve! Sorry my A$$!!!

She's scared of confrontations. She thought that stabbing at her team's back by making false allegations will make her WIN. In the end, she just buried herself into a very embarrassing situation. She's one BIG LOOSER.

Two of our team mates already resigned. Most of us are planning to follow them, actually. There's no future for us in the company. Especially now that we're supervised by a person who doesn't have the capability of a LEADER. She doesn't have the skills at all. I wonder how she got promoted.

I don't really want to hate someone like this. I am a good person but I'm just a human being. She's done enough damage already. I tried to like her. I really did try, but she continuously give me reasons to dislike her. It seems like she doesn't care if people don't like her at all. She's hopeless! I hope the HR officers are not going to ignore this issue or else they will loose good employees like me.

Busy Mind...

I still don't have enough sleep. I keep my mind busy again. I'm aware that this is going to worsen my pimples. I'll get tired of thinking too much later anyways and probably doze off to la-la-land before I knew it. Yeah, get some sleep, Ally or else you'll get yourself into nodular acne treatment if you don't get some beauty rest. LOL! Why am I talking to myself this way?

I just have a lot of things in my mind right now. My brother, Alex, texted me this morning and told me that our Mom is sick. She has cough but doesn't have fever. I bet her allergy took it's toll on her again. I'm glad my brothers were there to take care of her. I hope she'll get well soon. I feel guilty again for not being there for her.

I wish I have enough money so that I won't have to work here in Manila. But I really don't have a choice. I won't be able to find a job in GenSan that will pay better than the company where I am currently employed. My salary is even not enough to give me better life and help me save some money. Me and my friends are actually in search for a part time job. I hope we can find one good opportunity.

I hate going to work lately because I don't like seeing my supervisor's face. Nah! I know I should not be hating someone like this. But I really don't like her anymore. She's the worst supervisor I've ever worked with. She's incompetent. I wonder how she got promoted. I'm thinking about quitting my job because I'm really getting stressed out with her!

Sigh! I'm getting confused with what to do with my life. I hope I can decide soon!

Money Rant...

There are still a lot of things that I need to acquire for our little home here in Pasay. Yet I don't have enough money to purchase them. I still have to wait for my payouts at work so that I can purchase the things gradually. I need to buy bed covers, outdoor rugs, a curtain, and other home necessities. I just want to make our lives comfortable.

Joanna haven't brought her executive fridge yet, and I'm still waiting. I don't want to pressure her to bring it here from Bulacan but once we have the fridge, we won't have to buy ice cubes from the outside all the time. It's summer time and we really need cold drinks to keep our cool. I am also planning to buy a blender because I always crave for iced coffee and smoothies. If I only have the money, I also would want to buy an aircondition unit. It's too warm here because of the season. Sigh! If I only have the money, life would have been easier.

Update That Resume!!!

Things are getting really rough at work. It feels like there are a lot of negative vibes in there. My room mate, Joanna already resigned yesterday. Most of our team mates were saddened by her decision but not me. In fact, I'm impressed in how she could make up her mind that easily and quickly. She didn't think twice about resigning at all.

I'm happy for her because she's free of the stress and negativity now. Of course, she's gotten herself into something which I'm not ready to discuss in this blog yet. But she's in a better situation. I wish I could make decisions as quickly as she did. I don't know why, but I have that greater urge within me that's thinking about resigning too. I just have to find a new job that will compensate me better. I can't just loose my job without anywhere else to go yet. I have bills to pay and my stomach to fill. I won't be able to process a loan for the house that my Mom was planning if I'm jobless. Even websites like www.goodsamfinancecenter.com will decline my application if they learn that I'm unemployed.

I better get ready with my resume. I haven't updated it yet. That's the problem with me. I am so stubborn when it comes to doing paper works. I better make up my mind or get stuck with an incompetent boss and not have career growth at all.